the sun is shining =)

I'm now in the library...waiting to send the UU application...

Today morning I joined the Joint prayer meeting, i am really moved by the group, that they are not from specific christians group but just pray for the revival and unity in CU...when Eliphas said "We've been praying for MSHH for long, now the soil is soft enough for us and ppl later to work on". I really think what we can do here, to make harvest or so is solely the results from people before who prayed for the soil and heart of people, we are just doing the final easy step. I'm really thankful to God that He is amazingly raising up these people who have heart for CU and pray for CU continuously, the reward is reserved for them, not us.

God is reminding me these days too that i was too busy to have a private time with Him. Seeing Babel one scene is like this: when Brad Pitt's wife was hurting and at some embarassed moments, Pitt said to the Palestinian beside: can you leave us alone to have some private time?
and yesterday when God was telling me to pray, i just say: now i have something to do, let me to go to the library first. but he didn't let me, that i found i dropped my student card somewhere, sum called me at that time when i just before stepped into the library, and i know i need to pray at that time.

The same situation happened yesterday when i was going to "da wei" to meet Debbie, but God use a call to stop me, and then we change the plan. Then at that time i met E tin, my GPA group mother, who was one of the person i deserately finding after i come back, for i lost contact to her for long, we talked a bit and share, she is now working for a local newspaper here but she is going to change her job "I think i saw enough things..i'm thinking to change my direction...but i need time to re-educate myself and adapt to it," "It's good for you to know what you want to do,"

I was just thinking i'm a very lucky person, at least i know my next step...i really don't want to spend time trialing around until the moment i die regreting what i should have done...i really don't want to... Isn't it a blessing if you just straightly start doing the thing you want to do? Instead of spending years for elimination process...

the regular prayer meeting i mention above is 7:45am every monday outside "University Station" , please join us

"It's really painful if you are doing something you find meaningless everyday"

"It's really painful if you want to cry but the moment you cannot do it" I heard from a brother and a sister these days.

I do not have these experience, but i can imagine how painful it is

and yesterday afternoon i experienced how dark and painful it is when God's spirit leave me, it's hopeless, dark, sadness and loneliness altogether, and just without motivation to do anything, you feel your spirit is dying

I don't know why God let me have such experience(or I know), kind of spiritual attack i suppose, but at the same time remind me why people need God, the feeling of people live without God, that is the spirit desperately asking for help from outside...

i never want to forget why we need God.

yesterday i was telling Ruby that i missed the time to share with her, i spend a whole morning with her, but i didn't open my heart for sharing...i just don't know what i was waiting

sometimes i just want to spell out my feeling strictly, sometimes i think i was too fast ignoriong others' feeling...quite paradoxical...but gradually i accept that it's me

anyway...seems this post long enough, thanks for reading!

I just know that Big shan has her animation published and was introduced in a RTHK programme, God is really using everyone's gift to glorify Him and bring people to Him~~Add oil ar Shana~~

http://www.rthk.org.hk/rthk/tv/kaleidoscopeofideas/20060512.html

also today is Monkey's birthday, Happy Birthday!!Hope your "David" Film come out soon~~
now we watch "High friend full seats" sin la~~haha~~add oil!

Look outside, the sun is shining beautifully today =)

sha lala lalala...sha la la in the morning...wowowo