i wrote the post but there're loading problems and all are deleted
it's good, cos it's not really what i want to say at the moment

in this blog i really want to say sth filtered, not just transfer from others, make it more personal and real

have you had the feeling of owing somebody?
if you have, what would you do?

have you had the feeling of sadness?
why
feeling about yourself, or friends around you, or the world?

at this moment i would pray, and that's the thing at least i can do